Reading last week’s throwback post was so fun, right?! And by fun, I mean just a little mortifying… Really though, I did enjoy reading it mostly to compare me then to where I am now. So much has changed over these three years, but I couldn’t help feeling like I am in a very similar position today than I was on the day I walked through the DeCO doors for the first time. Back then, I was just jumping into all things physical for the first time. These days, I feel like I am getting a reintroduction. This time around though, I feel more whole. I feel like I know what works best for my body and I am learning how to move around better than I ever have. I finally feel ok modifying to fit what I need instead of worrying about getting to RX. Not only is my body feeling better, but so is my brain. I feel like it’s way more of a whole body thing now, which I believe to be incredibly beneficial.
Something that I had a ton of when I first started at DeCO was confidence. It was one of my favorite traits, but somewhere along the way I lost it. I think I am starting to get my confidence back, slowly but surely. These days, when someone asks me how I am feeling or how I am doing, I can confidently say that I am feeling good; in fact, I am feeling better than I have in a long time. I really truly finally feel like I am starting to get back to where I was, and it is so refreshing. I can’t wait for the day, which I know will be soon, when I can start slowly adding weight to my lifts and be out there running around the block with everyone else. It’s been a frustrating process, but I know I am stronger than I was and it feels great.