Join Tillifinney as we follow her fitness journey over six months, starting on April 16th, 2014. The highs, the lows, the goals, the PRs...she shares it all!
And now...Week 4!
I hate letting people down. I guess I’ve never really met anyone who enjoys letting people down though, so I’m sure you can relate to how horrible it is. I’m sure you can also agree with how, even though it may be selfish, letting yourself down is totally the worst. Ever. Well, here I sit on Tuesday night in the worst mood I’ve been in for a while. Today was awful, and this week has been so weird. Let’s hit some key points, of this week, shall we?
Whole 30 is over! For those of you who are reading and may not know what Whole 30 is, check this out
. That’s what I took part in from April 3rdMay 3rd, and I am proud to say that over that time, I was 100% food compliant. It was difficult at times, which you have read about, but overall it was amazingly rewarding. I lost 11 pounds, and noticed so many other differences in my body that I know I am adopting a largely clean eating diet for good. The end of Whole 30 is a bittersweet feeling for sure. It’s nice to be able to eat Trader Joe’s orange chicken again (seriously the best), but I don’t think I missed it. I thought I would have the hardest time giving up all those food groups, especially sugar, but I definitely didn’t miss the way all the processed crap makes my body feel. I plan on doing another Whole 30 soon, maybe in June (join me, won’t you?), and something I’m going to note is the financial impact. Prior to Whole 30, I would eat at restaurants at least three times a week, which isn’t cheap. Buying fresh food isn’t cheap either, but I think that it is still cheaper than eating restaurant food as much as I was. I’ll be interested to see the difference.
I made it into DeCO four times this week, which was great, but my darn knee is still acting up. It is so hard to be patient with it, because I know a lot of what I’m feeling really is my body getting stronger, but it is so uncomfortable. I am so thankful for all the great coaches at DeCO who supported me and gave me all the modifications I needed for the past week’s WODs. The stupid knee problem is hindering my goal progress. I had to miss out on my first colead Run Club on Monday because I can’t run right now, and I could hardly jump rope normally the other day much less jump for double unders. Frustrating. I’m hoping to get back on a normal schedule by the end of this week. I have been taking it easy, and have been diligent with stretching, foam rolling, lacrosse ball rolling, ibuprofen, and heat/ice to help speed up the process. This picture stumbled upon my Facebook page the other day, and it is the perfect follow up to how I am feeling from last week to this week:
I’m going to end this post a bit early this week with a bit of a funny story and a not so funny story as well. A few weeks ago as Lauren was leaving the house for a 5:30 am WOD on a Tuesday, she told Rachel and I to “have a good Monday”. Ever since then, we have given new names to the days. We now have first through fifth Monday, Saturday, and Sunday. Today is second Monday, and second Mondays are always the worst Monday. Today my second Monday had a jampacked schedule after school with not a second to spare. I had to make a visit to get a liquor license before 4:00 for an event I am planning, head over to do “Murph” at 4:30, then make it to babysit my favorite twins at 6. I’ll tell you that I was successful at two of the three things. Yay. Except that is what is causing me to be in the worst mood right now. I have been mentally prepping myself, to some extent, for “Murph” since Saturday. “Murph” was going to be my first benchmark WOD. I was so excited. I spent all of today in the bathroom because I was drinking so much water. I did PVC circles behind my kindergartners as they were doing a dance video because I was planning on rowing the mile instead of running. I read all the articles on how to succeed. Then 4:30 came and went, and I rolled into DeCO without enough time to finish before I had to be with the twins. I had a good cry about it in the car as I drove off, because I was so mentally prepared and ready to succeed at this WOD. I was going to finish no matter how long it took me. But I didn’t get the chance, and it is nobody’s fault but my own.
Letting yourself down is the worst, especially after so many people build you up. Rachel and Lauren did “Murph” this morning in about an hour, and they both spent a large majority of the day telling me how it was going to be fine and I would do great. All of you always give me the best words of encouragement on Facebook or at school or in the gym, and I feel like today I really let all of us down. It’s a huge bummer.
I’ll wrap up with a quick quote that is about you (yes, you). If you are reading this, you are one of these people for me, and I couldn’t possibly be doing this without you.
Here’s to getting back on the horse on third Monday and riding it into the sunset. Remember to do something great today. I will if you will.